Wednesday, 14 December 2011


After that momentary lapse of judgment, I waited for an answer. Then, I wondered. Those moments of pure and unadulterated joy...they were never meant to be anything but fleeting, were they? Then when the next one comes along, it seems that much sweeter.

And when time just saunters by, when everything seems black and austere, it toughens you up. Life isn't full of sunshine, ponies and rainbows. It's rough. I believe that every bitter experience leaves a mark on a person. The longer the moment, the deeper the cut.

I used to be that some people who think there's a place where we go after we die. I'd love to believe so. I'd love to die hoping that we can meet again some other place, some other time, where you will forgive me and we will embrace and live happily together. I want so desperately to believe it. But I know that what awaits me is nothing more, and nothing less, than oblivion. 

At the end of the day, I'm going to have a scarred soul to show for it. A soul that represents lessons learned and a life fully lived. Now, I appreciate life more than ever. I find beauty everyday, because of what I've been through. I see the sun, the trees- even the haze - and I'm just glad that I'm here to experience it.

Time heals all wounds, right? But it also causes them.

Monday, 12 December 2011

Dear Peeps.

We may not be the best and smart like the others, but we did try our best, didn't we? No matter how good and bad our results are, God gives us what we deserve. Let this valuable lesson teach us not to take thing for granted. Let's double and triple our effort! Remember, we all can do the best we can. We are good no matter what people say. We don't die with their saying. They will do whatever it takes to bring us down and we should never feel threatened by what they do. Let's show them what we got! We know ourselves the best.
Give thanks to Allah.

I made it!

All the hardwork and effort are paid off. It is enough to make me smile for the rest of the week, I guess. I managed to place myself on the second place this time. I made into the top ten again. Though my pointer mislead this time from what I had targeted, I thanked him enough for this sustenance. I know I could do better next time. 

p/s: Yes, we all get through this time.

Friday, 9 December 2011


Hi there. I'm still alive and kicking. Long time no story, right? Truthfully, I have no story to be told. I'm doing great though sometimes boredom hits me. On the one hand, I'm doing great, on the other hand, I'm doing nothing.