Saturday, 22 January 2011


Hi, there everyone's life there are moments of pride and doubt as life is like a wheel...that are remembered forever.

Through the years, we have set goals and met each challenges with enough courage and determination to overcome the many obstacles that we've encountered along the experience that makes us matured.

Success is not measured by how well we fulfill the expectations of others...but by how honestly we live up to our own expectations.

Because we have been true to ourselves in the pursuit of our dreams, we have earned this moment and the right to be proud of our expectations...and we have made it this far...why should we give up at last?

Okay...I now know...if you dream something...go and get you the only one who will make it real.

Contaminated by the thought that this semester 2 will be as difficult as to crack a have set my goal to endure well all the challenges that I am going to face later...

Yes, I can do it!

Things-to-do this semester:

1) Of course...there's no study without coursework...they are my priority albeit of others...
2) Macbeth staging...really need to polish up my acting far as I can remember the last time I act was about 4 years back when I was in sophomore year of high school.
3) Poetry recital...aha..this has made me suffered a pain no gain right?? So, as the project manager..I'm  really going to make this into real...Believe it or not...our names will be in the Malaysian Book of records!
4) English camp!...Oh my, this is the thing that I 've been waiting for so many months..and really kind of looking very most forward to it...

And lastly...things-to-do this week:
4) Updating mock exam is in within two more months to go...
5) Filing....

Have a nice day everyone!

Friday, 21 January 2011

Off plants and trees..

My friends, what if...

If you plant honesty, you will reap trust.
If you plant goodness, you will reap friends.
If you plant humility, you will reap greatness.
If you plant perseverance, you will reap victory.
If you plant consideration, you will reap harmony.
If you plant hard work, you will reap success.
If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation.
If you plant openness, you will reap intimacy.
If you plant patience, you will reap improvements.
If you plant faith, you will reap miracles.


If you plant dishonesty, you will reap distrust.
If you plant selfishness, you will reap loneliness.
If you plant pride, you will reap destruction.
If you plant envy, you will reap trouble.
If you plant laziness, you will reap stagnation.
If you plant bitterness, you will reap isolation.
If you plant greed, you will reap loss.
If you plant gossip, you will reap enemies.
If you plant worries, you will reap wrinkles.
If you plant sin, you will reap guilt.

So be careful what you plant now, it will determine what you will reap tomorrow.
The seeds you now scatter will make life worse or better your life or the ones who will come after. Yes, someday, you will enjoy the fruits, or you will pay for the choices you plant today.

There comes a time in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out- ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new prospective. This is your awakening.

You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or someone, to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren’t always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

So you begin making your way through the “reality of today” rather than holding out for the “promise of tomorrow.” You realize that much of who you are, and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a result of all the social conditioning you’ve received over the course of a lifetime. And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about:

how you should look and how much you should weigh

what you should wear and where you should shop

where you should live or what type of car your should drive

when you should sleep at and how you should behave

who you should marry and why you should stay

the importance of bearing children or what you owe your family

Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really believe in. And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that’s OK... they are entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a “perfect 10”.... Or a perfect human being for that matter... and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head or agonizing over how you compare. And, you make peace with the woman in the mirror and you learn to give her the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.

And, you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” hungry for your next fix, a new dress, another pair of shoes or looks of approval and admiration from family, friends or even strangers who pass by. Then you discover that “it is truly in giving that we receive”... and that the joy and abundance you seek grows out of the giving. And you recognize the importance of “creating” & “contributing” rather than “obtaining” & “accumulating.”

And you give thanks for the simple things you’ve been blessed with, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, the freedom of choice and the opportunity to pursue your own dreams.

And you begin to love and to care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-destructive behaviors including participating in dysfunctional relationships. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and exercising. And because you’ve learned that fatigue drains the spirit and creates doubt and fear you give yourself permission to rest. And just as food is fuel for the body, laughter is fuel for the spirit and so you make it a point to create time for play.

Then you learn about love and relationships, how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally and that not everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it’s not always about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place blame for the things that were done to you or weren’t done for you. And you learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions it spawns; anger, jealousy and resentment. And mostly you're not good enough to judge people...and so others on you.

You learn how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with confidence and grace. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake. Then you learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to Say NO. You learn that you don’t know all the things in this whole wide world as you need someone to tell you. You may know things that everybody don't really know, in fact, everybody may know things that you don't really know...You learn that you don’t know all the answers, it’s not your job to save the world and that sometimes you just need to Let Go.

Moreover, you learn to look at people as they really are and not as you want them to be and you are careful not to project your neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be, more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships and that that not everyone can always love you the way you would want them to. And you stop appraising your worth by the measure of love you are given. And suddenly you realize that it’s wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet “your” standards and expectations. You learn that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without conditions or limitations. And you learn what it means to love. So you stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that “alone” does not mean “lonely” and you begin to discover the joy of spending time “with yourself” and “on yourself.” Then you discover the greatest and most fulfilling love you will ever know. Self Love. And so, it comes to pass that through understanding your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.

Moving along, you begin to avoid Toxic people and conversations. And you stop wasting time and energy rehashing your situation with family and friends. You learn that talk doesn’t change things and that unrequited wishes can only serve to keep you trapped in the past. So you stop lamenting over what could or should have been and you make a decision to leave the past behind. Then you begin to invest your time and energy to affect positive change. You take a personal inventory of all your strengths and weaknesses and the areas you need to improve in order to move ahead, you set your goals and map out a plan of action to see things through.

You learn that life isn’t always fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God... but merely a random act of fate.

And you stop looking for guarantees because you’ve learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you’ll learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time FEAR itself. So you learn to step right into and through your fears because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophesy and you learn to go after what you want and not to squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending doom.

Then, YOU LEARN ABOUT MONEY... the personal power and independence it brings and the options it creates. And you recognize the necessity to create your own personal wealth. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. And a sense of power is born of self-reliance. And you live with honor and integrity because you know that these principles are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build your life. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful opportunity and exciting possibility. Then you hang a wind chime outside your window to remind yourself what beauty there is in Simplicity.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you FAKE a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

A word about the Power of Prayer: In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed not for the answers to my prayers or for material things but for ALLAH, the almighty to help me find the strength, confidence and courage to persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.

Remember this: “You are an expression of the almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you. Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you.”

His power is incomparable.

p/s: I need a catalyst to metamorphose myself to be a better man..a pilgrimage that I've been dreaming for so many years.

24 interludes of ....?

This is dedicated to my wonderful friends who enrich my life with the treasure of their being. May your soul decisions always be made with your heart, and not with your head. And I will cherish the moments that we had until my last, me, us as One!

1. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile.

2. There are moments in life when you really miss someone that you want to pick them up from your dreams and hug them. Hope you dream of that someone.

3. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

4. May you have...Enough happiness to make you sweet
Enough trials to make you strong
Enough sorrow to keep you human
Enough hope to make you happy
And enough money to keep you comfortable.

5. When one door of happiness closes, another opens. But we often took so long at the closed door, that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

6. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, swing with, never saying a word and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

7. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

8. Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably does hurt the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle a strife;
A cruel word may wreck a life
A timely word may level stress
A lovely word may heal and bless.

10. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves and not to twist them with our own image, otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

11. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along the way.

12. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift.

13. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

14. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

15. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and find out you still care for that person.

16. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

17. Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

18. Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love, even though they've been hurt before.

19. It hurts to love someone, and not to be loved in return but what is most painful is to love someone and never finds the courage to let the person know how you feel.

20. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

21. Never say goodbye when you still want to try;
Never give up when you still feel you can take it;
Never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go.

22. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

23. There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart.

24. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life to the fullest so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Saturday, 15 January 2011

The fact that I can plant a seed


it becomes a flower

share a bit of knowledge


it becomes another's

smile at someone


receive a smile in return


to me continual spiritual exercises


to me continual building unconditionally bond

between you and me


in return

your smile is the biggest resentment to my heart

your sweet honey nectar is the fragrant to my desert soul


your flying-rainbows-colour achievement

is the biggest the victory I have ever had

The voice in you...

A good voice has a charm in speech as in song. The voice, like the face, betrays 
the nature and disposition, and soon indicates what is the range of the speaker's 

Many people have no ear for music; but everyone has an ear for skillful reading. 
Every one of us has at some time been the victim of a cunning voice, and 
perhaps been repelled once for all by a harsh, mechanical speaker.

The voice, indeed, is a delicate index of the state of mind.

What character, what infinite variety, belongs to the voice! Sometimes it is a 
flute, sometimes a trip-hammer; what a range of force! In moments of clearer 
thought or deeper sympathy, the voice will attain a music and penetration which 
surprise the speaker as much as the hearer.

p.s: there's a voice in this world that i dread to listen to; soothing to mind...

Monday, 10 January 2011

We will seize the time..

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people

won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It is not just in some of is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously

give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,

our presence automatically liberates others.

Decide today to take control of your destiny and to be committed
to change until you create the life you really want. And you will
create it, for sure.

And until we meet, sending all good blessings your way.

Sunday, 9 January 2011

Squash..wait for me ea..

Dong..I am quite a lazy-bone to tell you the truth..especially when it comes to sports and physical activities..Oh, fudge..I really and really and really hate it..see how much I hate sports very much. teacher, physical fitness is very important so that you will be fit to do anything at school later on. And since that, I try my very very best to inculcate sports' interest in me..yet, at the end..I'm still a dork and loser and plunge with honour. I'm just so suck in sport anyway..let's say, whenever my friend ask me to join them in answer would be definitely..NO!

And somehow..I don't know why did I go for a jog this evening..perhaps there's a light that shines my way or maybe my friends' evening I go for a jog with my best buddy..we jog and jog and jog and jog..till we drop. Hahaha..okay..that's small thing..but there's something that has caught my heart..and guess what, it is Squash! The story is like this..whilst we are jogging..we pass through the gymnasium and find out not so many people use it..and I can say rarely used by students as the floor is unpolished and so many more inconvenience that eyes can see. But..that doesn't the matter..the thing is that now I am inspired by the wall and brick to active in sport! Good news right, isn't? So I guess I can feel the good spirit of sport has greeted me so that I am becoming enthusiastic in sport. So what's the point now is that maybe starting next next next week, my best buddy and I have decided to find a squash racket as we're going to be the next Nicol Ann David but of course in male version. Wait for us okay!

So..nothing much I can say other than our talents are so mediocre and perhaps this can enlighten our hidden do support us..We are going to rock the house!

Go TESLian Go!

Saturday, 8 January 2011

Try something new..

Ok..buddy..since we, IPG students haven't received our allowance as usual..we cut our expanses here and there including for food and shopping-two things that can run without my life..

So, I bring here all the way from Terengganu a rice-cooker for my convenient..I guess today marks a week haven't I ate cafe's dishes..aren't I? What a record anyway! Back to our main best buddy and I went out today to Kangar to buy some groceries..then..around 10 we arrived at The first, we stroll up and down of the store for window shopping and later find ourselves at food section!

As what you will be tummy is singing for spaghetti, so we end up buy campbells soup and maggi..actually this is Hazwan's(you can click here to see full verse of recipe) idea of trying new recipe, and mostly create by our own. So we decide to do spaghetti ala replacing spaghetti with maggi but the sauce is still like the one pizza hut has, carbonara whilst at the same time to save our budget as spaghetti will coast you arm and legs.

What I can say other than it's so scrumptious and awesome! More or is similar to the bona fide spaghetti..but still there're flaws here and there..yet's still delicious for our tongue and throat..and believe me it can cater all sorts of people tastebudsssss...

Why not have a try?

"Summer" is in the air..Perlis gets hotter than usual..

" Shall I compare thee to a summers' day.."

Lo and behold..supposed, January is the summer season in Perlis..and it will be hit with scorching, hot will be soaking wet by sweat almost all the time..and feeling as if the sun is just beneath your head..whenever you dry you clothes, water will be evaporated in the minute of time..sounds great..aren't they?? The geography itself says north of Malaysia climate is different from the rest of states as more or less, it is affected by the Thailand ring of tropical monsoon climate. That's what I assumed and presumed..BUT..since this is early January..usually you can feel the bliss of hot temperature..but it isn't!

Instead..what is in return is that chilling cold breeze at a time but I can say almost all the time..especially at night..I feel like my bone is freezing and my mouth is shaking due to "maximum" low temperature as if I am staying in freezer. Sometimes, it comes with rain..and wind becoming more terribly obnoxious..but it is so pleasant..when you're outside, you can feel the breeze blow through your cheek..the five sense will be stimulated by the vast rage wind that enters through the spores on your skin..becoming cold is bare in mind..never do this at home.

If this so-called summer season..I'll be like it very most! Seeing the sun is still on its right axis and position, I'll not be worried much as the sun will always be there for us.

Friday, 7 January 2011

First week in wrap..

Okay seems like ages haven't I wrote something here..and no doubt I don't really think that I have interesting stories to be shared..but..there have been so so much things had happened to me this week. And I'm quite stress and blood pressure go on not only to the roof but also to the space. make things worst..on the first day of lecture..I got fever..that's still consider okay but what makes things terrible and disastrous is I was diagnosed with diarrhea..Holy Crap! Never in my life I got this and it suffers me a lot. Toilet bowl will be your best company for few days and you will throw out for quite sometimes..your tummy will feel something is pulsating on it and pinching with pain as if a sharp knife has strucked into your heart. And I feel that already..nothing much I can say other than it bother you a lot.

And for the first time also I skip class to go to hospital..on that day, what I can say is that..I was half-dead..I feel like my body is empty inside..feel nothing..only a sore wound and desert of fatigue and swirling headache. So throbbing! At that time..sorry to say..tears form in my eyes..and at the end down though my cheek. I start to think of my parents..I really do miss them so much. Nothing can stop my mind from thinking of both of them. THEIR PRESENCE IS THE SECURITY OF MY LIFE. And since I am away..I protection isn't that strong anymore..and becoming quite vulnerable.

And now let's move on to my new step in B.Ed preparatory program at IPG Perlis campus..starting this week..I have set my feet onto semester 2..Grin! Feel matured a little bit..but still I act like a kid. Semester 2 means more challenges..more tests..more obstacles..more hurdles..and many more..And I'm going to endure them with full-spirit..with blood..with pain..and with sweat. No matter rain or shine..I'm going to make it out. I'm going to double my effort also at the same time so that my target for this semester will be accomplished..amin..and mind you..really looking forward towards mock exam though I haven't prepared anything yet. I just feel excited to be in exam again after a long time as Teslian have no exam in sem 1.

Next..this is also the moment-of-truth also for those who are taking MUET..and so do I. We have been waiting it for quite some times and this week is the day. And really really really thanks to god..I got band 4! Quite okay as I exceed the minimum band to proceed for degree. Still I'm satisfied with my performance as I don't really prepared well. So, I deserve advice for those who aren't getting band what they want..Don't be fret..MUET is just a piece of paper..but still my future is based on it..yet..there's still so many ways you can figure out..only perseverance is the key to any doors. Don't give up and keep trying and trying and praying..cause will decide what the best for you!

And as for next week,

I had:

Quiz for Social studies..

Quiz for Language Description..

And to if truth be told, I haven't start any..dong!

Come on syad..think positive!

Orait..I think this end of my story for this week..

See you..

Have a nice weekend!

p/s:looking forward for 1 week chinese new year break!