Monday, 25 April 2011


When you are in our shoes

Well then you will know

Everything that you should know

Every fact that you should understand

Every doctrine that you should be able to decipher

Every clincher that you should be aware of

Every feeling that we used to feel

p/s:random thought.

Sunday, 24 April 2011

Whatever you say we are!


I don’t know why did I smile and giggle whenever I think of what people say about us. (TESLian). Supposedly, I must be angry or somehow agitated by those, (yes, I did) but somewhat there’s no worth of pissing off over this silly-wily thing. The fact that you should know is that whenever they talk about us, there is as if no other good adjectives that can describe us. Out of all good and decent words in the dictionary, the bad words only they remember. (Poor them, I’m so very sorry for them! And I’m just with full-heartedly willing to give them vocabulary lesson). Whatever it is what I can say is that; they can say whatever they like because who cares! They can utter whatever they want because who really cares! They can mutter whatever they love to because who really matters what they say! I don’t care and the rest also don’t really bother by. I’m not at the losing end to say the least. I don’t lose a thing. That shows how narrow they think and how short their minds are. That also shows how unprofessional they are. That is why I don’t really go into the system. It creates division. And division is not good for human being because we are all the same and must be treated equally. And it causes comparison. Oh my, comparison is thoroughly bad. It marvels misunderstanding and retards creativity. Come on; open up your mind to see how big the world is and to know that there are so many things that you haven’t discovered. I really feel very pity with these people because they never learn how great the life can be and how wonderful the people are. I just believe that different people are good and unique in their own ways. This is who we are...and we really matter what we want to be. What people say doesn’t matter. They are like the pain in our ass. I just don't give a DAMN and FUDGE on it! 

Saturday, 23 April 2011

Bleagh...Challenges ahead!

A wise man said if you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

And it is not easy to succeed and it easy to fail.

Well said, he was definitely true and correct.


After all the hardships and challenges, I managed to endure them with success.*so far*

Without the given courage, I will definitely never be able to endure them alone.

Without the unstoppable support, I will never be able to undergone them with courage.

Without the given patience, I will never be able to stand on my own foot now.

And the entire tests that hit me are the reason for me to stay strong and be prepared to be hit by another wave of challenges.

Every times they pay me a visit; I take them positively even if I know that I am at the losing end.

Because, I know that there must a reason for this to happen.

And definitely, there must be a silver and golden lining behind all these dark and thunderous clouds.

That is why I will try my best not to whine, complain and sigh because these are tests from HIM.

Like I said previously, these things happen as to see our patience, our smartness and how much we remember HIM.

As we always remember HIM when we are in desperate but seem to forget HIM when we are in joy though the fact that the joy that we attain are from HIM.

Thus, this is the sign that HE remembers us always. HE gives us light to not go astray and before we go beyond what we are not supposed to. And to wake us up from the worldly dreams.


These are the things that can help us to improve and ameliorate ourselves to be a better person as we are not beforehand.

when I say it...I really mean it.

So far, I think everything goes very well...not to the well. J

Though sometimes, things we plan out go beyond our expectation, we take it as motivations to move on in life.

Life isn’t as easy as abc though.

And the entire test that we undergone and endure is the parcel that makes life meaningful, interesting and definitely, make us matured, am I?

Yes, I am. No doubt that we may be not prepared for things that happen in our life.

What we can do is that to recall of what we have undergone before, make them as a reference and boundaries to embark on a new step.

Never afraid to step forward, cause those who are always moving ahead will never fail.

Plus, though at times we will be at the losing end, never be frightened of; never stop praying; never give up; never sigh and NEVER EVER STOP TRYING. PEOPLE WHO KEEP TRYING VERY HARD WILL NEVER FAIL.

Lastly...I am inclusion to this point which is NEVER GET TIRED EASILY IN REACHING FOR THE STAR.

There is no TIRED word in my dictionary of life.

Friday, 22 April 2011

Waiting is good...isn't it?

I LOve SuRpriseS

And Kind oF Looking very most forward for the "CALL"

Should I pronounce it as surprise?

Well...I think I should though.

Since it leaves me in blank and perpetual dream.

I need a definite answer.

Wednesday, 20 April 2011

Off thorns...

A certain man planted a rose and watered it faithfully and before it blossomed, he examined it.

He saw the bud that would soon blossom, but noticed thorns upon the stem and he thought, "How can any beautiful flower come from a plant burdened with so many sharp thorns? Saddened by this thought, he neglected to water the rose, and just before it was ready to bloom... it died.

So it is with many people. Within every soul there is a rose. The God-like qualities planted in us at birth, grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects.

We despair, thinking that nothing good can possibly come from us. We neglect to water the good within us, and eventually it dies. We never realize our potential.

Some people do not see the rose within themselves; someone else must show it to them. One of the greatest gifts a person can possess is to be able to reach past the thorns of another, and find the rose within them.

This is one of the characteristic of love... to look at a person, know their true faults and accepting that person into your life... all the while recognizing the nobility in their soul. Help others to realize they can overcome their faults. If we show them the "rose" within themselves, they will conquer their thorns. Only then will they blossom many times over.

Saturday, 16 April 2011

What's in your mind counted.

Still, I could hardly figure out where I got my intuition and strength to ride a motorcycle last Wednesday. Just so you know, I did have the license for both motorcycle and car, but the problem was that never before I tried to either ride or drive them. Never! *full stop*

Not that I was afraid of accidents and what not, (I have to concede the fact that it was also one of the reason why I was frightened of, and it seemed like unavoidable though) it was just that there were some circumstances that stop me from having fun with my license. Don’t get me wrong, I know that the road didn’t have a mouth to eat all the vehicles on it, but rather my low self-confidence stopped me from kept going.

As a result, my license turned up to be one of the precious and priceless displays in my wallet.

I tried to pinch and smack my head several times to make sure that I did step on the right ground. It was to wake me up from my perpetual dream. And yeah, I was really on earth. Yet, towards this end, I hadn’t received any answer to my doubt.

There were so many questions played and accumulated in the back of mind. When the confusion mixed around with the undecipherable feeling, things was just got complicated.

Was it my inner strength that caused me to get over my weakness?

Was it because of someone had pushed me to the limit; therefore I managed to do so?

Was it me the one who never realised my true courage?

Was it the fear had overwhelmed and faded my genuine power?

This my mock family.Ngee...Actually, it was Jan's birthday on that particular day..and, riding the motorcycle was part of the surprise I guess. LOL

Whatever it was, just because I never rode a motorcycle before, it didn’t mean I didn’t know how to manoeuvre motorcycle. Mind you, I had the skill but I rather kept it inside than treasured it for the sake of my future.  All I could say was that I should have faith in myself, my ability and capability to move on in life and to endure everything that had been fated for me. That was called the true courage. I should have never downgrade and disbelieve in my talent, power, and confidence as these were things that could wash away the real me. Let not the fear overwhelmed and retarded my self-esteem. Whenever I think I can, I really can do it. Yes, I can do it. I think I can do it. Nope...I absolutely can do it. HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF! Who else could understand you more, if not you, yourself? Who else can improve your life, if not you, yourself? Who else can you pride of, if not you, yourself?

Whatever happened in your life, be thankful and contented as GOD wants to test you upon everything HE has given to you.

If others can do it, why can’t we?

Thursday, 14 April 2011


Never sigh when we are in trouble or problem.

And never dwell on the problem itself.

But wait what should we do then to stand up and fight?

First thing first, the entire problem that hit you is actually a form of test from GOD.

It is to see your patience and how smart you can be to manoeuvre problem in your life.

And the most important thing more than the plan you have is the sense of gratefulness upon everything that you have been given by HIM.

When the problem gets hard and complicated, all you need to do is to think positive.

Remember, never get flustered and heated up.

You must put some deep thought about why do these things hit you.

And you must realise your mistakes too.

Take a deep breath and figure out a plan and strategy to counter the problem.

You need to have a back-up plan too, if let us say your master plan doesn’t work in the way that you want.

But, to say the least, never ever run away from the problem.

It doesn’t even make you matured.

And trust me; you will never learn how to improve yourself.

The only thing you learn is to repeat the same mistakes.

And be the same “you” beforehand.

Problem and mistake make our life more merrier and interesting like a roller-coaster riding.

Saturday, 9 April 2011


It is
My bad

My ignorance

And I'm really sorry for everything that I have done intentionally and unintentionally

Sum Up.

Tribute to English Language Camp, PPISMP B.Ed TESL June 2010 intake (Cohort 2, Cycle 3).

Thank to Mdm.Kris, the camp director and all the lecturers for making sure this ELC was a great success. their hardwork, encouragement, passion, and effort are things that touch us the most. We love you all for that.

But, what is important more than the enjoyment, joys and satisfaction that we get from is the ability to communicate and to get to know these kids better, and also the ability to comprehend who we are, why we are here and what we should do and behave.

I really hope that ELC will strengthen our unbreakable bond among TESLian. To make us stay strong whenever the rough wave hits the shore, to support each other whenever the tower is about to topple down, to stand with what we believe in even if others wouldn't.

Remember, what people doesn't matter as what we believe in is counted. Have faith in yourself everyone!

Congratulation for PPISMP TESL SEMESTER 2, we finally did it!

p/s: It has proven that we are just as good as the rest! Thank you very much to SK Changkat Jawi...and CJ crew...We really rock the house!

Friday, 8 April 2011


The two-day experience in SKCJ is unlike any other. *Full stop*

I can’t really tell you how I feel after what I have learnt and got during these two days in SK Changkat Jawi. The feeling is undecipherable and cannot be described by words. Only god knows what and how I feel. I feel very contented and mind you, the contentment that I feel is beyond measured. The bliss that I enjoy is out-of-this-world!
I think CJ crew has done all out and given as best as they can.

During the English-Fun-Day, we have planned out so many activities for the students. And thank god that we manage to carry out all the activities with the students. In fact, they enjoy with what we have done. All in all, people in SK Changkat Jawi are amiable, energetic, out-spoken, passionate, and enthusiastic though they are rural area student. But, that doesn’t stop them from being passionate primarily toward English. Seeing their ears-to-ears smile and hearing their unstoppable giggles, we hope that they would be to apply what we have taught them and what they have learnt from the English-Fun-Day. We hope that with this little cup of deeds, it will titillate their interest towards English, thus giving them an advantage to survive in real world later in the future. Somehow, I believe that we all have achieved our mission and vision in cultivating English among students.

Let the pictures narrate the story; Have a fine viewing people!

Me and my group.

Language Games

Board Games, not Bored games

Me and Ajman

Board games

Musical Chair

Me and Aiman

Newspaper In Education

My story

Again, me and Ajman 

Group 8

Group 3
Station Challenge

Thank - You dance

Puppetry Show

Closing Speech

Sayonara Kids!

A leader in the making
SK Changkat Jawi...thank for the memories and experience that we have attained through out our presence there. I will cherish every second and moment that we have had together! Thank for all!

Tuesday, 5 April 2011

Kids, be nice and good to me yeah!

And finally the moment that we have waited for so long has come. So, tomorrow will be the day-the beginning of a journey as an English teacher. By then, it would perhaps help us to comprehend the duty as a teacher that is more than just an educator.

Tomorrow is going to be our school outreach programme in which we are going to handle English-Fun-Days with the students ate respective schools. Mine is Sek. Keb. Changkat Jawi or its surname is CJ 7(the cutest cartoon on the block).

Previously, during my pre-visit at CJ 7, I found out that the students are so cool and energetic despite of not-so-well-facilitated school as this school is in renovation and under construction. That doesn’t the matter. What is important is that the cooperation given  is at the maximum level. Seeing their antics, I believe they will be good and nice at us tomorrow. They are really awesome people mind you!

Again, tomorrow also will be the day when we can preach what we have learnt and practiced through out this 1 year. Not enough that we learnt, but as long as it gives a huge impact, that would be all. This will be the time when we can practice our language. Language should be shared, not be kept inside.

And also, this will test our patience and intelligence in manoeuvring kids as we never have the chance before. Because of teaching profession is all about the passion for kids. Kids are just amazingly awesome. To tell you the truth is that I am not really good at controlling children. I maybe amiable, but I am not stern enough to frighten them. That leaves me in dilemma. Think positive!

Be nice and good you people! 

Can't really wait to see you there!

Monday, 4 April 2011

English-Language-Camp Fever.

Should I announce here that our ELC fever is in the air?

Yes I should and in fact it will be going to be tomorrow.

Wow! Don’t you think everything seems to move very fast? Or else is the time is ticking in bullet speed?

Well, I couldn’t agree more on that. But, whatever it is, our English Language Camp will be tomorrow until Thursday. Cheer everyone!

I supposed you all know that our batch ELC will be different with the previous batch. Whereby in our batch ELC version, we are divided into 4 groups and mind you, we are also assigned into 4 respective schools in which we are going to handle a 2-day English Fun Days with the respective students as we will carry out many activities with the students. Isn’t that fun, isn’t?

But, wait! Wouldn’t that means when we are in schools, we are going to be called as teachers/sirs by the students. Isn’t that cool? It sure is. I really can’t wait for that title. I bet we are ready to be called so, aren’t we? Just say so.

So, as for now, I believe we are physically and mentally prepared to face the music from tomorrow onwards. Why I say so because ELC is all about our pride, our name, and our dignity. This is it. This is hopefully will bring monumental changes into our TESL groups to be respected and looked high upon.

And yeah, ELC also will be the platform for us to practice what we preach. And the most important thing is that ELC also will be the stage where we can ameliorate our English adroitness. Like I said before, to teach someone something, we must to be good at something. That’s it. We are not looking for Caucasian-like accent or native-speaker-like accent, as long as you know how to handle the language and everybody understands what you are trying to convey, that would be an effective use of language. What for it is to be like a native speaker if we don’t have the passion for kids and teaching? That would be another intelligent-waste I think.

So, remember, our main focus now is our ELC. And English Fun Days will be our core business. Bear in mind that we will make sure the students will enjoy themselves and so are we. This is we called win-win situation. The bliss and blast that the students get are the zenith that we want to reach and are the biggest resentment that we will ever have.


What I can say here is that in everything that we question, there must be an answer for it. No matter how hard and tough it is, and no matter how complex and difficult it is, there will be a solution at the end.

So, I have got the answer for the question that arises in the back of my mind. 


Sunday, 3 April 2011

Everything is fine and okay!

I’m no by any means avoiding you all the way.

Neither I am also being complacent.

I’m not perfect and the whole wide world knows that.

Human will never be perfect, isn’t?

So, recently a question crops out, and asking me; “Ash, are you okay?”

Well, I thought of screwing myself at the first place.

But, nay, I’m just so okay, I’m as happy as ever.

And in fact, I guess I have got back my momentum that has washes away the emotional inertia that I had before long.

So, the point is that now, why on earth do you ask me whether I’m okay or not?

Only you know the exact answer, aren’t you?

Saturday, 2 April 2011

How to encounter this feeling.

After all the things that you have done, and after all confession that you have made
What will you do? And what will you react?
To reassure this flying feeling is to spread its wings so that you can measure how high you can fly up in the sky.
Remember, everything has its own border line, even though we may not see the state line.
At this point, you really have to know to manoeuvre this feeling before it goes cumbersome to handle.
Here are some tips to encounter this feeling with success;
1)      Be straight-forwarded. Never hide anything that you are not supposed to hide. Tell everything to her/him because he/she may help you to find a solution.
2)      Be understanding. To make this feeling a victory, all you need to do is to understand his/her antics. You need to go deep into his attitude and gratitude. And also, you need to know what is in his/her mind. Well, predictions are sometimes will do.
3)      Be open-minded. Open to what he/she is saying and never afraid to make mistake. From mistake, we will learn to improve ourselves.
That would be all for today. Have a nice weekend.