Homey people

It’s a jihad to witness some of my friends going home already. How I wish I could join them too. But nay, I have bought the ticket, and will depart tomorrow night. I could wait as long as I am done with the thing that I want to finish up which is revising the past semesters subjects. I’m half the way, I guess. Literature / English studies is the subject that I have not touched until this very moment. I’m currently hitting the keyboard to come out with this post. Again, I suspend my unfinished business. I should have done that month ago. However, I admit the fact that I’m not the kind of person who could remember all of the thing or most of the thing at once. I need a continuous revision.

I just follow what my lecturer said about English studies, “Dear students, literature is about what is happening around you and your life. Hence, you ostracise this subject, and revise the other subjects for that they may help you in answering literature.” I know what he meant here. His words epitomises the importance of having good grammar. Say, you have good points on your mind, but your points seem pointless because your grammar sucks. This happens to me either. I some times stuck for words or points. I simply lose track of what I’m doing and what I should do next. I must take note to ameliorate this predicament some day.

Tear can heal a lonely heart of missing home. I experienced this when I was back then in form 4.

Come to think about going home, I couldn’t help but to admit the fact that I, too, feel homesick. Are you not supposed to be matured by now, huh? Screw that anyway. I must say that I treat myself like a little kid. I must make myself feel special. The homesickness that I endure does not reach to an extent that I must go home no matter what. I know the rules that regard us all, I also bend the rules sometimes, but not to a point that I slack off from campus just because I want to go home. That is too childish, peeps! Come on, you should have savoured the campus life because you are going to miss this some day.

Distance, money and study are the reasons that falter my urge to go home. It is an obvious fact that I come from the other side of Malaysia and I study at another side of Malaysia. Imagine how far I am away from home. I have never asked to be here, the government sent me here. But thankful enough, this is quite a place to study. I must say that this make me missed my hometown every single day when I was in first semester. You must know the fact that I have never been in hostel back then during high school. For that matter, hostel life seems to be so cumbersome to manoeuvre in the first place. Plus point, with the condition of the place that I study at the moment, I guess you will know why I must say it makes thing worse. This has caused me not to pamper myself much as I want to train myself to cope up with the life that I have to undergo for the next four years from now. 

The best thing to do when you are away is to take a piece of paper, scribble with above words, and start to picture your family face in the back of your mind. What a relief!

Always, there’s a strong tide of urge to go home, but to think of the money that I must spent, I can’t go home as frequent as I can. I come from a middle-class family or middle-income family. I just can afford to go home as much as I want but I choose not to. I must say that I have to fork out more than a hundred for the tickets, and you know what, with that sum of money I can purchase a pair of Lois jeans that I adore the most. I rather spend the weekend with my peeps than spending time on the bus alone. This is the time for me to socialize with my friends, to get to know them better. This the moment for me to do stupid things with my friends like staying up late at night watching movies, chatting till late night(we chat about almost everything!), playing ping pong, squash, badminton late at night or other stuffs that are unexpurgated, surely. I also take this chance to make a weekend gateaway some times when we have extra cash, savouring time with each other and letting off our steams. It is a heaven, I could say. If I don’t take this chance, I don’t really think there will be another time.

As I mention earlier in the post, I postpone my journey because of my study. I’m not a nerd kind of student. You can hardly see me carrying books wherever I go. They are so heavy mind you. That’s super not me, mind you. I spend most of the time facebooking, blogging, watching movies with my roommate through our elfin screen of our notebook (It is some times so annoying because the quality of the movies are low, well that better be for pirated version.). I concur the fact that I am kind of addicted to facebook. I can hardly be parted with facebook. Is there anyone from the web has a cure to this pandemic? I really need those to ensure that I focus on my study.

I have blabbered too much, I deem. So be it! 

I must say that I really miss my parents and family, always. My prayers are always with them. They got my back, too.

I’m going back tomorrow, at last! See you in Terengganu.

I can hear the lapping of the waves calling me to return home.

p/s: It is true that home is where the heart is.

Motivation

I was so demotivated to hit the books these days. Time seemed to fly away without any second being used to the fullest. I was a big procrastinator, I admit it. I should have told myself that last minute effort did not work. Bummer. So today, I regain my self-conscious to start a new dawn as I realized that exam is just around the corner or I shall say a spit away. On top of that, I want to give myself some motivations for me to move on and keep on fighting! Yeah, I'm alive! Thank god, in essence...

A room hung with pictures is a room hung with thoughts.

A fig for your bill of fare. Show me your bill of company.

Let us raise a standard to which the wise and honest can repair.

No evil can befall a good man, either in life or death.

It is well to think well; it is divine to act well.

They are never alone who are accompanied with noble, true thoughts.

We find in life exactly what we put into it.

Too much rest is rust.

Order is heaven's first law.

The difference between one boy and another is not so much in talent as in energy.

It's so true that you need someone or something to make you a wake-up call. This morning, when I woke up from my sleep, I browse through my family pics, I realized then I have a future to work for. I believe in whatever I do.

How dinasour appeared?

I was running some errands when I came across a small dinosaur-like-shaped that I bought ages ago. It was a gift from Petrosains. Up until today, people are scrutinizing their heads figuring out how dinosaur appeared. There are a lot of people write about dinosaur, and this is my version how dinosaur come to live. 

Here goes the story, 

Long, long ago, there were only volcanoes and the seas and sand on earth. There wasn’t a living thing that lived on land.
 

One day, a strange thing happened. Rain fell and one of the droplets fell on a big, round rock. The rock suddenly became smooth and colorful. Then, it rolled all by itself into a big, dark cave. There it lay for 364 days.
 

On the 365th day, there was a cracking sound. The egg had hatched! Out came a creature which was green and small. The creature was one meter tall. It walked on two legs and ate plants. Its name was Hypsilophodon (hip-sill-loff-d-don). It was a new creature, a living thing, something that lived on land. It was…a ‘dinosaur’.
 

Rain soon fell again. Another droplet fell on a huge rock. The same thing happened. On the 365th day, it hatched and another dinosaur was made. It was called…Iguanodon (ig-wan-o-don).
 

Iguanodon was a much larger dinosaur than Hypsilophodon. It had a bony spike on each thumb that it used to fight off its enemies.
 

Time passed. More eggs were made, and hatached, and more dinosaurs appeared.
 

Dinosaurs ruled the earth for millions of years. Dinosaurs were the very, very first creatures made to live…on earth.

It, indeed, sounds a little childish, isn't it?

Do you believe the existence of Dinosaur or just another make-up story by westerner?

Penang (checked)

From now on, I officially erase Penang from the list of states-that-I-haven’t-visited which I created ages ago when I was back then in primary school (I guess).

Perlis (checked)

Kedah (checked)

Penang (checked)

Perak (checked)

Selangor (checked)

Kuala Lumpur (checked)

Negeri Sembilan (yet to visit)

Melaka (checked)

Johor (checked)

Pahang (checked)

Terengganu (Obviously, I come from here)

Kelantan (checked)

Sarawak (yet to visit)

Labuan (yet to visit)

Sabah (checked)

Here, we could see that there are three more states to go to complete my own Malaysia discovery.

Back to the main story, as of we are in the study leave at the moment, we took this chance to get away from our beloved campus. All the studies things and exams make us dull boys and turn us up and down. So only today, we had a chance to escape from these labyrinth and we chose to let off our steams in Penang. It was like a weekend gateway for us. To tell the truth, we had been planning this like a year ago and only last week we had a moment to make it true. There was always thing that encumbered us from moving on. I knew that some naysayers would say that Penang was just a spit away, but heck; I am here to study not to travel all the time because I do love the idea of travelling, yet it is in certain occasion only. We postpone our hols due to certain circumstances. We were so caught up with our studies in previous semesters (big liar) and the second thing is, our finances are not as strong as today though the fact that we are like dead broke at the end of month, especially (screw that).

There were three of us, Aiman, Faiz and I. We are classmates and Faiz is our class rep. We went there by bus and it took us a long 4 hours to reach Butterworth even though it normally takes two hours to reach there due to several problems. Safely arrived, Faiz’s dad went to pick us up at the bus terminal and took us to a mamak’s stall. I had a quite experience here, you know, I don’t prefer mamak’s cooks and I guess everybody knows that so when I happened to encounter this last few days, I took a safe step by ordering a roti canai. Throughout the hols, we stayed at Faiz’s house that was located at somewhere around Seberang Jaya which one thing I remember most about the place was somehow his house was near to a shopping mall. I would dare to say that his family was welcoming, warm and benevolent.  They were nice people. In short, we went to some iconic places like Bukit Bendera, War Museum and list goes on. I could say nothing other than awesome! On the last day, before returning to campus, we went to lunch at my friend’s house at Padang Serai. I had a plenty of fun there and will be there again, hopefully.

Gratitude

Special thanks to;

Faiz and Faiz’s parents for letting us stayed at their house; letting us used his car to move around; preparing us food to fill up our stomach

Faiz for taking us there and driving us all over the places
Ahsan for becoming our tour guide in Georgetown 

Hazwan for inviting us for a lunch

Hope to see you all again!

Let the pictures do the talking!

Sniff something huh? He was wondering what his future would be if he jumped out of the ferry. :D

We wanted to stay here, but to no avail...there was no room available. It is, in fact, office place.

Camwhoring after a journey to the top. All relief faces.

Friends are always together! Credit to a Chinese woman who helps us out.

It's time to shot! :P

Faiz, look at here!

Before going down, must take a picture here.

Ready to venture a new world.

Let's march!

What are you guys looking for huh?

Climb up the stairs dude!

 Good friends are always hard to come by, once you have them, appreciate them most! Thanks y'all!

p/s: next destination: Kota Kinabalu!

Random

I was staring deep into a tree outside of the class through a clear and transparent window next to me when I realized someone gave a slow and steady smack on my head. Oh boy, it was my table mate who knocked me to wake me up from my subconscious state of mind. Literally, I wasn’t there in the class. I admit that my body or physic were there, however my mind and soul were flying away to some unknown and mysterious places. I now gained my composure. It has been quite sometime had not I daydreamed. Back to tree outside of the class, it really caught my eyes today. At the bottom of my heart, and at the back of my mind, how I wish I could be a tree. It was literally a mockingbird. It did not harm anybody, instead human are depending on it to live. It did not expose to destructive and disastrous things like human did. Its life was to be a devout creature of HIM. Best of all, it did not have to sit for an exam like human did to test their intellectual. Looking at the table in front me, I saw a paper lying across the width of the table waiting for me to fill in all the blank spaces. I told myself how stupid I was because my future relied on a piece of paper. I screwed that for saying those. I monologue that if I want to be like a tree, I must embed myself with plenty of knowledge so that I would give an impact to other people, instead of bringing harm.  

the reasons why I must stay strong and assertive enough to fight. They are the cause for me not to falter and dwell in this virtue. :D

Test

I was overwhelmed by the feeling of nervousness. I knew that I was too worried over my coming final exam or I was worried because I had not prepared any, and even hit the book thoroughly. I procrastinated a lot, I admit it. Before that, let's enjoy this song:

TEST (Native Deen)

Lately things have been so stressed for you
It seems like life is trying to mess with you and pester you
You thought you knew exactly what to best pursue
You working hard on those things that you set to do
But you confess it's true that your success is few
And your folks are only helping in depressing you
You try to do the Deen but they be stressing you
And it gets to you but you suppress that too
An exam, you go and study day and night
You pray and write, hope for a grade you like
But when you get the test you're in dismay and fright
There's no A in sight and only 8 were right, wow!
And what about the sister you enquired about
She's so pious, devout that it required a scout
But then you get the news her Wali fired you out
They were wired, no doubt, to someone higher in clout
Lately its seems that your calling in life
Is just you falling in strife
The word appalling is right
And you notice you've been feeling sick, why who knows
So you call upon the doctor she can eye it close
She tells you I suppose, that you wont be very happy when I diagnose
Although you try your hardest not to cry it shows
It's a monster load, and your strength is sinking
You start wondering and thinking

What's going on? it seems all wrong, why am I the one struggling along?
I don't know why I'm hurting, I never hurt nobody
My life I'm living right, but it's crumbling around me
How strong is my faith this time? (got to pass the test)
Will my solution include Haram? (got to pass the test)
I gotta be strong during times like these, (got to pass the test)
I know after hardship there goes ease! (got to pass the test)

It's a test, (from Allah), a test (from your Lord), it's a test (what you gonna do?), gotta realize it's a test (4x)

Folks used to say you were smarty kid
Others made mistakes but you hardly did
Since then man, life has just been marvelous
You stand tall like an obelisk
It's obvious
Your high paying job is never arduous
Your living in your crib and you got marble this and marble that
Others dream to rival that
And your blessed to never draw major debt
because success is your motto nothing keeps you down
Passing peeps in town, yo by leaps and bounds
People clapping when you talk because of deep renown
You drive Hummers and top model jeeps around
You know its bad and haram to be a miser and boast
But your healthier and wealthier and wiser than most
You gotta an adviser to those, who try to propose
Cause there's so many potentials that they line up in rows
You got it all, the power the money the wealth
Your thinking God's gotta love you more than anyone else
But wait Whoa wait a second, this isn't what your thinking
You gotta stop and think why you getting all the blessings
Don't want to let it shake ya, or let the devil make ya
Forget to praise Allah and then fail the test your taken
No doubt you're gonna try your best
Gotta be thankful and pray no less
Already gotta head up above the rest
Cause you realize this is just a test

Chorus

So face it, in life, you'll be tested at times
The devil, he's bright, don't let him mess with your mind
Yo, we're blessed, the Divine, which is the best for mankind
So He (God) gives us exams so don't get stressed out and whine
Even the best of all humanity was tested Himself
Allah can test us with calamity or test us with wealth
Can you hold back from profanity and focus yourself
Or maybe keep away from vanity and function in stealth
It's tough, trust me I know that it's rough
But after pain comes ease and you'll be blessed from above
I hope when the time for my test comes along I will cope and I'll find I'll be blessed when I'm strong
So my people, when life is a mess
You gotta focus and realize, this could be your test.