Overfeeling

After that momentary lapse of judgment, I waited for an answer. Then, I wondered. Those moments of pure and unadulterated joy...they were never meant to be anything but fleeting, were they? Then when the next one comes along, it seems that much sweeter.

And when time just saunters by, when everything seems black and austere, it toughens you up. Life isn't full of sunshine, ponies and rainbows. It's rough. I believe that every bitter experience leaves a mark on a person. The longer the moment, the deeper the cut.

I used to be that some people who think there's a place where we go after we die. I'd love to believe so. I'd love to die hoping that we can meet again some other place, some other time, where you will forgive me and we will embrace and live happily together. I want so desperately to believe it. But I know that what awaits me is nothing more, and nothing less, than oblivion. 

At the end of the day, I'm going to have a scarred soul to show for it. A soul that represents lessons learned and a life fully lived. Now, I appreciate life more than ever. I find beauty everyday, because of what I've been through. I see the sun, the trees- even the haze - and I'm just glad that I'm here to experience it.

Time heals all wounds, right? But it also causes them.

Dear Peeps.

We may not be the best and smart like the others, but we did try our best, didn't we? No matter how good and bad our results are, God gives us what we deserve. Let this valuable lesson teach us not to take thing for granted. Let's double and triple our effort! Remember, we all can do the best we can. We are good no matter what people say. We don't die with their saying. They will do whatever it takes to bring us down and we should never feel threatened by what they do. Let's show them what we got! We know ourselves the best.

 

Give thanks to Allah.

 

I made it!

All the hardwork and effort are paid off. It is enough to make me smile for the rest of the week, I guess. I managed to place myself on the second place this time. I made into the top ten again. Though my pointer mislead this time from what I had targeted, I thanked him enough for this sustenance. I know I could do better next time. 

p/s: Yes, we all get through this time.

Proof

Hi there. I'm still alive and kicking. Long time no story, right? Truthfully, I have no story to be told. I'm doing great though sometimes boredom hits me. On the one hand, I'm doing great, on the other hand, I'm doing nothing.

Health: Stay Fit and Invigorating

Warning! This is quite a lengthy post. If you don't feel like reading long composition, do not hesitate to log out from this page or simply ignore this post. :D

Keeping yourself healthy is not an easy task. I have no doubt that health is one of the pivotal elements of the fundamentals of living. But as we grow up, often, most of us neglect our health from day to day. At the end of the day, we will suffer from various ailments that have no cure. Always, lack of time, work load, and life commitment are the reasons that shirk us away from giving ourselves a breather to do something beneficial for our health. Simply, we are always told what to do to stay healthy, but little did we know how to do it. Coming to this notion, what should we do to keep ourselves healthy?

We must come to a realisation that one of the ways to stay healthy is to stay fit. The word fit itself explains the whole thing about fitness. We must take care of our fitness. Yet, it comes to the question of what we should do to stay healthy. When talking about staying fit, it has something to do about our exercise regularity. Second, we must get ourselves involved in sports. We should not exert ourselves to do difficult and hard activities like weightlifting or playing rugby, only a brisk walk around the park will do to stay fit. In return, it makes our body and our heart stronger whilst helping us to reduce our stress. Plus, an interesting fact to highlight here is that when we exercise, our body produces chemicals that make us feel happy. Is not this what we want? As a result, we can avoid such diseases like heart diseases and obesity which are the main “killer” among Malaysians. 

Ever wondered how does what you eat affect your life? As the saying goes, you are what you eat. Yes. Our foods determine our level of health. If we eat something nutritious and good-for-us, it will benefit our health a lot. However, the story will be totally different if we eat unhealthy food. Now we should know that eating right is one of the steps to stay healthy. To eat right is to consume healthy food like vegetables, fruits, and carbohydrates. Another thing is to have a balanced diet in the intake of our foods, such as more vegetables than meat. Henceforth, eating healthily will give our body the nutrients to have energy, stay healthy, and fight disease. It helps to keep us at a desirable weight so that we do not have to undergo extreme diet to have a slim figure. Also, it makes us feel good that we pride ourselves of our healthy body and how we look.

 

 Overwhelmed by the fact that stress gives a bad impact on our health, we need to manage our stress to stay healthy. When we are under stress, our mind become haywire and everything we do is not right in our eyes. It makes us feel down and we get gloomy. The point is, stress is really damaging for our health. It leads to depression and in serious aftermath, it can cause suicide case. See how deleterious the stress can be for us. Upon saying this, we should question ourselves how we fight the stress when it runs our life. To manage our stress is to find ways to relax and do something we enjoy. Remember, we have to live our lives in a way that we do things that we love and venture life from other perspectives. The relief of talking to your family and friends about your problems and conflicts can also be a way to reduce stress. For this reason, it makes us feel happy, happier and most importantly; it makes us healthier as result of free from stress. 

Much has been said about this, but still we lack health-awareness in our daily life. Just remember- if we do not start to stay healthy now, then we should not dream to live long, a fact that depends on our fate. At the very least, prevention is better than cure. We should not wait to realise the importance of staying healthy when we are already on our deathbed. Forget what people want to say, you determine your life and how you want it to be. If you want to have a healthy well-being, the choices are in your hands.

Padang Besar Retreat

Hi there! I am counting hours to return home. Feeling of excited, boredom, and sadness hit me at once like I am going to leave Malaysia soon which is so not true. Ha-ha. Truth be told, I am not really interested in telling y’all how I feel and what I feel about finishing my foundation years- I really hope that this preparatory years would make me assertive enough to strive in my future undertaking. Back to my main crux, yesterday, I went out again with my fellow TESLians to Big Field (Padang Besar) which was 30 minutes from my campus. There were five of us. We really had a moment together. And yesterday retreat was indeed an epic and phenomenal. Mind you, we shopped till we drop (Screw that). Enough talking, I was dismayed hitting the keyboard because I had enough with writing these few weeks that I had a serious case with my grammar allegation. Ha-ha. So darn tired today as I had been busy clearing up my room as I am leaving tomorrow afternoon. Let’s stop here and enjoice the pictures of mine.    

We were so engrossed with the ostrich. Honestly speaking, this was the first time all of us seeing ostrich. You know, Perlis also has ostrich like South Africa. Correct me if I am wrong.

New Zealand-like place = Chuping. The lord of the ring played here...I totally lied.

One of the goodies I bought. Ignore the background.

Boys Only

We were so carefree right after the examination. We had nothing to do and nothing crossed our mind. To celebrate the independence day of ours (TESLians), we went out last night to devour western cuisine in Arau. We had a really good moment together. Come to think of the lamb chop that we ate, as a student, the price was so reasonable and I think everybody can afford it. This restaurant which I obviously could not remember its name must be included in the list of where-to-eat, or what-to-eat when you come here to Perthlis. 

The diner planner, I meant MessySerabut was the one who suggested here. Really worth the penny!

Awesome. And Scrumptious!

Just in case you did not know about this, I found myself in a difficult and hard time answering the English Studies which was about literature that day, I meant on Monday. I really screwed up the paper. :(

What she said was totally true...I, too wander who was responsible to set those question.

Checkmate! It's over.

Just now, the final paper of my final examination, social studies that I barely feel satiated with the answer I have written marks the end of my TESL preparatory years or so-called PPISMP TESL. I am officially finished and done with my foundation years and my journey as a freshman student.

Above all, the examination is as difficult as it is supposed to be. I guess I have given my best and all out though the fact that I should have done and could do better than that. However, like I have said, let bygone be bygone and what is done cannot be undone. Let not worry about the past. Now I leave the rest to HIM to decide what is the best for me. I pray hard that I would nail off into TESL degree. I still have few days before returning home. What is next, see you around next year as B.Ed TESL student!

Wish you guys the very best of luck! My very best wishes are always with you! TESL D!

Next year will be dealing a lot of challenges that I need to double or may be tripled my effort.

Checked! :D

p/s: will go for several retreats before returning home. :D

Exam Fever

Alhamdulilah. I thanked Him so much for that I am still alive, survive and kicking to continue my virtue. As of now, everything went well despite of the fact that I should have done better. But, what is done cannot be undone. Finally, the thing that I have been waiting for so long has come. I am done with two papers and last two coming up next week. You know, this week and next week will be weeks of sort for me. I am really caught up with examination. I am in dire need to hit the books because the last two papers involved a lot of reading. Exam really drains my vehement and spirit to hit the keyboard. I am currently addicted to reading and revising, and books have become my drugs. 

Unbeknownst to me how fast the time travels, all I know is next week, my cohort and I will face the final obstructions that barricade us from heralding our wings into degree level; English Studies and Social Studies. I could not help myself but realised that everything must come to an end and so our preparatory years.  Again, time tricks us all. Hopefully, these preparatory years make us assertive and strong enough to face the challenges ahead when we embark on our feet into TESL degree. I pray hard for all 105 of us will do B. Ed TESL next year. Break the leg!

Cohort 2 Cycle 3 are always together!

TESL power! Roar!

Gather up all your power and strength to combat with the final two battles!

Keep holding on because I know we will make it through!

Keep believing in yourself – the most potent weapon you have!  

My best wishes are always with you all.

Monologue

Could someone be so powerful enough that you gather up all your courage and braveness to simply immortalize the past memories between you and someone that ironically, it takes you years to get over it?

 Yeah, sometimes people can have a big influence on you, therefore it takes you some times to think back of what you had and what you had done in the past. These set yourself some limits, so that you would not go over the line when you take action and be wise in making decision. Simply, it becomes the guidelines for you in conducting your life and makes you be careful in taking steps and chances. At times, we need to think thoroughly about the chances that lays in front us. Think deep and give a thought about it would help you to visualize what would happen in the future if you are to take this chance. 

Come to speak of the people just now, I am not by any means saying that they are those who are bad or in the same way, but maybe they are those who make you up what you are today, and they are those when in the midst of all the darkness and despair, there, they come like superman, of course in their own way, and help you out when you are in need, make you smile the whole day. To say the least, you have never had to erase your past memories that you spare a moment with someone because, in all this sanity, there will come a times when you have to look back to your past even if it means you have to swallow your pride and go hand in hand with your rival which is your own sense of insecurity. That is why if we are to jot down what we have had in our life, I guess a blog is not sufficient. Upon saying this, the set boundaries must not be the limits for you to move on in life. You should take this as a guideline for you to make up good choices for the betterment of your life. 

No matter how hard we try to forget what we have experienced, there will come to a point in  our life that we have to reap them back while we say, "Oh, I have done this."

Homey people

It’s a jihad to witness some of my friends going home already. How I wish I could join them too. But nay, I have bought the ticket, and will depart tomorrow night. I could wait as long as I am done with the thing that I want to finish up which is revising the past semesters subjects. I’m half the way, I guess. Literature / English studies is the subject that I have not touched until this very moment. I’m currently hitting the keyboard to come out with this post. Again, I suspend my unfinished business. I should have done that month ago. However, I admit the fact that I’m not the kind of person who could remember all of the thing or most of the thing at once. I need a continuous revision.

I just follow what my lecturer said about English studies, “Dear students, literature is about what is happening around you and your life. Hence, you ostracise this subject, and revise the other subjects for that they may help you in answering literature.” I know what he meant here. His words epitomises the importance of having good grammar. Say, you have good points on your mind, but your points seem pointless because your grammar sucks. This happens to me either. I some times stuck for words or points. I simply lose track of what I’m doing and what I should do next. I must take note to ameliorate this predicament some day.

Tear can heal a lonely heart of missing home. I experienced this when I was back then in form 4.

Come to think about going home, I couldn’t help but to admit the fact that I, too, feel homesick. Are you not supposed to be matured by now, huh? Screw that anyway. I must say that I treat myself like a little kid. I must make myself feel special. The homesickness that I endure does not reach to an extent that I must go home no matter what. I know the rules that regard us all, I also bend the rules sometimes, but not to a point that I slack off from campus just because I want to go home. That is too childish, peeps! Come on, you should have savoured the campus life because you are going to miss this some day.

Distance, money and study are the reasons that falter my urge to go home. It is an obvious fact that I come from the other side of Malaysia and I study at another side of Malaysia. Imagine how far I am away from home. I have never asked to be here, the government sent me here. But thankful enough, this is quite a place to study. I must say that this make me missed my hometown every single day when I was in first semester. You must know the fact that I have never been in hostel back then during high school. For that matter, hostel life seems to be so cumbersome to manoeuvre in the first place. Plus point, with the condition of the place that I study at the moment, I guess you will know why I must say it makes thing worse. This has caused me not to pamper myself much as I want to train myself to cope up with the life that I have to undergo for the next four years from now. 

The best thing to do when you are away is to take a piece of paper, scribble with above words, and start to picture your family face in the back of your mind. What a relief!

Always, there’s a strong tide of urge to go home, but to think of the money that I must spent, I can’t go home as frequent as I can. I come from a middle-class family or middle-income family. I just can afford to go home as much as I want but I choose not to. I must say that I have to fork out more than a hundred for the tickets, and you know what, with that sum of money I can purchase a pair of Lois jeans that I adore the most. I rather spend the weekend with my peeps than spending time on the bus alone. This is the time for me to socialize with my friends, to get to know them better. This the moment for me to do stupid things with my friends like staying up late at night watching movies, chatting till late night(we chat about almost everything!), playing ping pong, squash, badminton late at night or other stuffs that are unexpurgated, surely. I also take this chance to make a weekend gateaway some times when we have extra cash, savouring time with each other and letting off our steams. It is a heaven, I could say. If I don’t take this chance, I don’t really think there will be another time.

As I mention earlier in the post, I postpone my journey because of my study. I’m not a nerd kind of student. You can hardly see me carrying books wherever I go. They are so heavy mind you. That’s super not me, mind you. I spend most of the time facebooking, blogging, watching movies with my roommate through our elfin screen of our notebook (It is some times so annoying because the quality of the movies are low, well that better be for pirated version.). I concur the fact that I am kind of addicted to facebook. I can hardly be parted with facebook. Is there anyone from the web has a cure to this pandemic? I really need those to ensure that I focus on my study.

I have blabbered too much, I deem. So be it! 

I must say that I really miss my parents and family, always. My prayers are always with them. They got my back, too.

I’m going back tomorrow, at last! See you in Terengganu.

I can hear the lapping of the waves calling me to return home.

p/s: It is true that home is where the heart is.

Motivation

I was so demotivated to hit the books these days. Time seemed to fly away without any second being used to the fullest. I was a big procrastinator, I admit it. I should have told myself that last minute effort did not work. Bummer. So today, I regain my self-conscious to start a new dawn as I realized that exam is just around the corner or I shall say a spit away. On top of that, I want to give myself some motivations for me to move on and keep on fighting! Yeah, I'm alive! Thank god, in essence...

A room hung with pictures is a room hung with thoughts.

A fig for your bill of fare. Show me your bill of company.

Let us raise a standard to which the wise and honest can repair.

No evil can befall a good man, either in life or death.

It is well to think well; it is divine to act well.

They are never alone who are accompanied with noble, true thoughts.

We find in life exactly what we put into it.

Too much rest is rust.

Order is heaven's first law.

The difference between one boy and another is not so much in talent as in energy.

It's so true that you need someone or something to make you a wake-up call. This morning, when I woke up from my sleep, I browse through my family pics, I realized then I have a future to work for. I believe in whatever I do.

How dinasour appeared?

I was running some errands when I came across a small dinosaur-like-shaped that I bought ages ago. It was a gift from Petrosains. Up until today, people are scrutinizing their heads figuring out how dinosaur appeared. There are a lot of people write about dinosaur, and this is my version how dinosaur come to live. 

Here goes the story, 

Long, long ago, there were only volcanoes and the seas and sand on earth. There wasn’t a living thing that lived on land.
 

One day, a strange thing happened. Rain fell and one of the droplets fell on a big, round rock. The rock suddenly became smooth and colorful. Then, it rolled all by itself into a big, dark cave. There it lay for 364 days.
 

On the 365th day, there was a cracking sound. The egg had hatched! Out came a creature which was green and small. The creature was one meter tall. It walked on two legs and ate plants. Its name was Hypsilophodon (hip-sill-loff-d-don). It was a new creature, a living thing, something that lived on land. It was…a ‘dinosaur’.
 

Rain soon fell again. Another droplet fell on a huge rock. The same thing happened. On the 365th day, it hatched and another dinosaur was made. It was called…Iguanodon (ig-wan-o-don).
 

Iguanodon was a much larger dinosaur than Hypsilophodon. It had a bony spike on each thumb that it used to fight off its enemies.
 

Time passed. More eggs were made, and hatached, and more dinosaurs appeared.
 

Dinosaurs ruled the earth for millions of years. Dinosaurs were the very, very first creatures made to live…on earth.

It, indeed, sounds a little childish, isn't it?

Do you believe the existence of Dinosaur or just another make-up story by westerner?

Penang (checked)

From now on, I officially erase Penang from the list of states-that-I-haven’t-visited which I created ages ago when I was back then in primary school (I guess).

Perlis (checked)

Kedah (checked)

Penang (checked)

Perak (checked)

Selangor (checked)

Kuala Lumpur (checked)

Negeri Sembilan (yet to visit)

Melaka (checked)

Johor (checked)

Pahang (checked)

Terengganu (Obviously, I come from here)

Kelantan (checked)

Sarawak (yet to visit)

Labuan (yet to visit)

Sabah (checked)

Here, we could see that there are three more states to go to complete my own Malaysia discovery.

Back to the main story, as of we are in the study leave at the moment, we took this chance to get away from our beloved campus. All the studies things and exams make us dull boys and turn us up and down. So only today, we had a chance to escape from these labyrinth and we chose to let off our steams in Penang. It was like a weekend gateway for us. To tell the truth, we had been planning this like a year ago and only last week we had a moment to make it true. There was always thing that encumbered us from moving on. I knew that some naysayers would say that Penang was just a spit away, but heck; I am here to study not to travel all the time because I do love the idea of travelling, yet it is in certain occasion only. We postpone our hols due to certain circumstances. We were so caught up with our studies in previous semesters (big liar) and the second thing is, our finances are not as strong as today though the fact that we are like dead broke at the end of month, especially (screw that).

There were three of us, Aiman, Faiz and I. We are classmates and Faiz is our class rep. We went there by bus and it took us a long 4 hours to reach Butterworth even though it normally takes two hours to reach there due to several problems. Safely arrived, Faiz’s dad went to pick us up at the bus terminal and took us to a mamak’s stall. I had a quite experience here, you know, I don’t prefer mamak’s cooks and I guess everybody knows that so when I happened to encounter this last few days, I took a safe step by ordering a roti canai. Throughout the hols, we stayed at Faiz’s house that was located at somewhere around Seberang Jaya which one thing I remember most about the place was somehow his house was near to a shopping mall. I would dare to say that his family was welcoming, warm and benevolent.  They were nice people. In short, we went to some iconic places like Bukit Bendera, War Museum and list goes on. I could say nothing other than awesome! On the last day, before returning to campus, we went to lunch at my friend’s house at Padang Serai. I had a plenty of fun there and will be there again, hopefully.

Gratitude

Special thanks to;

Faiz and Faiz’s parents for letting us stayed at their house; letting us used his car to move around; preparing us food to fill up our stomach

Faiz for taking us there and driving us all over the places
Ahsan for becoming our tour guide in Georgetown 

Hazwan for inviting us for a lunch

Hope to see you all again!

Let the pictures do the talking!

Sniff something huh? He was wondering what his future would be if he jumped out of the ferry. :D

We wanted to stay here, but to no avail...there was no room available. It is, in fact, office place.

Camwhoring after a journey to the top. All relief faces.

Friends are always together! Credit to a Chinese woman who helps us out.

It's time to shot! :P

Faiz, look at here!

Before going down, must take a picture here.

Ready to venture a new world.

Let's march!

What are you guys looking for huh?

Climb up the stairs dude!

 Good friends are always hard to come by, once you have them, appreciate them most! Thanks y'all!

p/s: next destination: Kota Kinabalu!

Random

I was staring deep into a tree outside of the class through a clear and transparent window next to me when I realized someone gave a slow and steady smack on my head. Oh boy, it was my table mate who knocked me to wake me up from my subconscious state of mind. Literally, I wasn’t there in the class. I admit that my body or physic were there, however my mind and soul were flying away to some unknown and mysterious places. I now gained my composure. It has been quite sometime had not I daydreamed. Back to tree outside of the class, it really caught my eyes today. At the bottom of my heart, and at the back of my mind, how I wish I could be a tree. It was literally a mockingbird. It did not harm anybody, instead human are depending on it to live. It did not expose to destructive and disastrous things like human did. Its life was to be a devout creature of HIM. Best of all, it did not have to sit for an exam like human did to test their intellectual. Looking at the table in front me, I saw a paper lying across the width of the table waiting for me to fill in all the blank spaces. I told myself how stupid I was because my future relied on a piece of paper. I screwed that for saying those. I monologue that if I want to be like a tree, I must embed myself with plenty of knowledge so that I would give an impact to other people, instead of bringing harm.  

the reasons why I must stay strong and assertive enough to fight. They are the cause for me not to falter and dwell in this virtue. :D